chapter summary.
in which i show off my questionable aesthetic taste and five hundred links to the rest of my site, go over the terms of engagement, do a characters like me sampler, admit to using bluesky, and generally overwhelm you with everything but autoplay. or at least, that's what i'm doing on desktop. on mobile / blog view i'm mostly just replicating the bits that don't require css or patience.
natalie mielle.
𑣲 a bit about your web-saintess:
she wants to be flowers, but you make her owls. you must not complain, then, if she goes hunting. [ . . . ] i think she was longing for the time when she was flowers on the mountain, and it is making her cruel, as the rose is growing thorns.
basics. natalie, mielle, or daphne if we're close. born in 1994. she, zie, they are all fine but please never call me he or use masculine/butch/etc terminology unless you see me use it first. genderfluid femme bi. white, tme transfeminist, fat and happy with it, disabled ( chronic fatigue, fibro, sleep phase something ) and insane ( cptsd and comorbidities, bipolar ), ex full service sex worker. xviii: the moon. toxic yuri warrior and general unlikable lunatic. aquarius who doesn't believe in astrology, scaredy-cat who doesn't believe in ghosts, loves some candles and rosemary magic despite being annoyingly atheist in real life. so-called "saintess" because i'm incapable of using the word "master" normally after decades in the doctor who mines, and i read a truly horrific amount of otome isekai and now think saintess is a normal word for an evil woman chosen by angels to fuck around and ruin everyone's day.
online. i've been everywhere on the internet, if only for a day or two, and i've kind of given up on making myself work for social media's sake. i'm very obnoxious about my opinions and i was raised in a cave by a cloud so every third word i use is a pidginette stand-in to bridge the gap between my isolationist word salad and the real word where the concepts i'm trying to verbalize won't exist for another hundred and fifty years. you can always ask me to clarify something unless you're going to do so as a foot in the door for a teaching moment™ where you berate me for describing a different colour red than the one you see or in the way you'd describe it. this site dabbles heavily aesthetically with shades of rose pink, lindt teddy bears, strawberries and apples as a stand-in until they release the raspberry emoji, and the giant gaping hole that the owl service drilled in the side of my head when i read it as a precocious child. it is a work in progress, but i've decided that everyone talking about "living sites" was right and i'm tired of not publishing what i have done in case people expected more.
accessibility. i coded most of the chunks of this to my preferences but i test 90% of it live either on my phone in the bathtub or on my wife's phone where he has darkmode and bigtext turned on. if it's broken on your phone know that it's not because i hate accessibility: it's because i tried really hard and i failed every time until i gave up. as far as specifically colours go i have tried to keep it safe on night mode but i re-read my posts on daymode and so the contrast needs to not be a migraine trigger for me more than any other hypothetical reader who can use the alternate colourscheme without getting sunspots that make them throw up. and before you say "you sure are lucky that your own headache-avoidance colours are also the exact rosy shades you like to code in" i'd like to point out that i'd be a bigger idiot if i didn't give in and just learn how to make something really cute within the cataract haze shades i'm allowed to look at?? my favourite colour is grey and i can't use it anywhere i need to be able to read back to myself. at the end of the day, i'm disabled too and i can only do what i can do.
read my diary.
SEP. endured a lot of house repairs, babysitting wife after his surgery, very tired. 5/10
AUG. caught up on manga, played way too much afk, enjoyed summer? 6/10
JUL. worked hard on code, made a lot of pixel art and 110 ekuoto stamps, cut hair. 6/10
JUN. saw a friend, saw a tornado, saw several contractors, made some miis. 7/10
MAY. worked hard on code, made a lot of pixel art and 110 ekuoto stamps, cut hair. 6/10
APR. filed for divorce, did not sleep, my little paige niemann popped back up. 2/10
MAR. owhe launch, car broken into, rescued two garden cats, ported sp to pk (eugh). 7/10
FEB. mad at iwtv:tv over lestat, made best cheesy leftover korma melt in world. 6/10
JAN. my birthday!! got norovirus / adeno flu, liked the acnh hotel update. 7/10
sealed with a loving kiss.
character tropes that get me every time: small but knowing clown, getting the cia award for journalism (bullet in the head), rip to orpheus but i would simply never turn around again*, opening your eyes and then opening your eyes again,tam lin, the palace perspective, burning alive at the stake for a few minutes just to see if they'd say sorry and take it back, blood magic in all the worst ways, any interesting takes on vampirism at all, being the angriest person alive, a life that fits inside an acorn, my [father] is the worst man alive and i'm his favourite [daughter], whatever phemiec is ever singing about when they put the troll horns on, manic downswings of the "i'm taking you with me" variety, saving the day because you're an uncompromising bitch, "i wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy" i would, and of course and as ever: the jewel of all-desiring, the wisher class, and deceptive harmony.
* yes i know that it's a story about a specific type of tragedy and the point is that had orpheus loved eurydice any less he would have also been able to keep on truckin™ but i am making a point of my own about characters like lan wangji and riza hawkeye whose fatal flaw is a very different thing that would have allowed them to walk all the way out of hades. the girls that get it get it.
rose of the month.
Black Magic ♡ or: hybrid tea
after stressing myself out about missing a month i decided that this pick for october would be nice and lazy. so i went looking for a black rose for the obvious gothic angle. black magic isn't quite right but i'm more endeared by it than i am by the few alternatives. i like the velvety sheen it takes on in the dim light that gave it its name and i'm always a sucker for a tasteful tea rose. this rose looks nice and it suits the season. i've never been given to halloween fever the way my darling friends are; jack skellington and the addams family films have always been a christmas thing to me anyway.
let's catch up.
since my last: we had the other big repairs crew roll in, destroy our yard, and roll out. with the roof and foundation sorted and a proper fence put in i'm now allowed to worry away at internal fixes for a few months in peace before it becomes time to get serious about gardening. we need to make a lot of changes to the yard area before we can plant sunflowers and blackberries and grow veg and set up what will eventually become a little pagoda buried in our cottage garden, and most of them do require me to let winter roll in and out first.
touching grass: we got the catio (read: mostly inaccessible front porch the old owners inexplicably built) tidied out and actually set up our bird-and-squirrel feeders around the windows the cats can access easily. we also dug up and added to our windchime collection now that we have unfettered access to the large tree out back and actually spent an hour or so painstakingly hanging them all up. now one end of the house sounds musical and the other sounds like a lot of native birds attacking one another. star and i have started driving out of the city to take a more beautiful walking path and have managed to get to the halfway point before looping back to the car. i'm optimistic about our ability to finish it before the first snow.
mindlessly scrolling: owhe continues to be good, hsd continues to drop bags i dislike, and i've been communicating in emojis with the japanese-speaking core userbase of nui biyori about how much we all like eachothers photos of teddy bears doing everyday activities. otherwise the dead internet has been making itself harder and harder to endure so i just... haven't been.
last updated: 5:47am, saturday, august 8th, 2026
camera roll.
my neighbourhood.
i'm so over the moon to be able not only to add a neighbours section but to move buttons from sites i like up into this section instead?? anyway here are my beloved oomfs all of whom have sites i want to eat
sites i really like.
disclaimer: i like some of these for their tone, some for their resources, and some for their code. to make it extra confusing as to which is which, i put them in alphabetical order. have fun !
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